Friday, August 20, 2021

5:16

The call wasn't really that long and I am not quite sure when it started but once I heard it my eyes went right to the clock on my phone like I could freeze time in place. See I have been sick lately although, I guess you can say I have been sick all of my life with one thing or another.

I had a double precedure on 8/17/2021  that was more then what they had expected to find. They removed pieces and resected me, then sent the pieces off to be tested. 

I was thinking I wouldn't hear anything till I saw the Surgeon. on Friday but Thursday night at around five in the evening the call came in. It was the Dr. I know a Dr. doesn't call unless it is something, not that late, good news can always wait. I have had these calls before up to 10:30 pm. 

This time it would be the word I thought I would never hear. The C word, The Big C,  CANCER, they found cancer and they aren't sure they got it all because they had to cut it out of me in little pieces. 

The first thing we did was call our children and branch out from there. Today after two more calls I will be posting on my social media. There are just too many people to contact with the news. Social Media is quicker besides telling everyone the same thing over and over just tires me out more then I already am. 

Of course almost everyone so far is asking how I am taking it, how is my husband, the kids. Well I don't know we are still processing it. My husband went to bed early, me I can't sleep, the kids are being supportive. 

People ask what the next steps are. Well the Surgeon tomorrow and then a call to oncology for an appointment to see just what those next steps will be. Of course I have to call my Primary Doctor as well as my Genecologist. You see they found a growth on my left ovary right before Covid-19 changed up everything, that they have veen watching. It is right next to where they found the cancer in my colon so everyone needs to be on board for this.

I suppose I am writing here for myself more then for my readers but hey who knows, something I might say might save someone's life. 

Some people asked did I know or think something was up. When has something not been up with my health? The answer is yes. Even when I am not having Diverticulitis pain I feel something in my stomach which is actually my intestines. It feels like something is eating me alive, gnawing at my insides. It took awhile of it happening to say anything to my husband, he even ordered a pregnancy test hoping I was just pregnant. When it came back negative that is when he started to really worry.

Then in June I had blood tests. I saw the results. It showed my bone marrow had kicked in and my red and white cell counts were all in the wrong places. I am not dumb. I was just hoping it was the infections I kept getting over and over and that the numbers would get better. So did I have an idea I sure did.

My appointments were already set so things couldn't go any quicker. I was supposed to have my precedure back in 2018, but between Dr.'s retiring, cases being shifted, busy schedules with kids and then Covid-19 we kept putting things off, there always tomorrow (Isn't that what we tell ourselves?). Last year things began to get worse with infection after infection which is what put my precedure further out finally after  being infection free for 8 weeks I had my predcedures. So here I am. 


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